Well. I just had the urge to check up on the old livejournal and now I'm nostalgic, missing it. So how bout an update. It's yet another period of change, hmm probably the most massive yet, ever in my life now that I think about it. Good and bad.
I'M HAVING A BABY! It was a surprise to us, too : ). We are so happy and excited and occassionally scared out of our minds! I'm about 17 weeks/4 months pregnant, due August 26th. Hopefully we'll be finding out the gender in a few weeks because I simply can't wait another five months.
It's amazing how the way you think about everything changes the moment you find out you're gonna be a mama. And there are *so* many new things to think about now, from getting maternity clothes and a car seat to considering natural childbirth to how we'll be able to afford moving to avoiding family pressure to get married. We have to remind ourselves to take a break from it all once in a while. I've learned one of the keys is to plan the things that are necessary now and in the next few months, because thinking too far into the future is when you get overwhelmed with it all.
I'm definitely getting a belly, at the in-between stage where my most of my normal clothes are too tight but maternity clothes are still huge. Every day is something different to be excited or stressed about, though I'm doing my best to keep the stress to a minimum. I never know what crazy thing my body will decide to do next. And just knowing we're growing a new little person in there that has a part of both of us... it's magical, and we have to believe it was the right time for some reason.
Well, this is getting long so I won't get to all the crazy things going on, but here's another big one. My parents are getting divorced and my family seems to be very much falling apart in various ways. It started with my mom telling me in November that she was going to kick my dad out after the holidays (because that would be easier for everyone, yes but thanks for ruining MY holidays, MOM). Actually, they might already be divorced--there was a court hearing last week and it appears that everything is going quickly, but I try to stay out of their details lately, I've enough on my mind.